My fave cousin Peter is a model of rectitude, public school education, seriously intelligent and drinks like several fish and I adore both him and his amazing wife Heather, who also drinks like several fish. That’s not to suggest that they spend most of their time in an alcoholic haze but they do enjoy liquid refreshment that contains alcohol so I fitted in very well. I was a bridesmaid at their wedding and because of my reluctance to forge strong bonds with my family (due to the strained relationships I had with my immediate family and my terror of rejection) I kept my distance for many years. But when I was last in London going through treatment for Carol (cancer) I went and stayed with them and had such a special time. Throughout our estrangement Heather ALWAYS kept in contact with me somehow or other and never once did they reproach me for my inability to respond to their attempts to contact me.
They are two of the kindest people on the planet and when I left them I finally felt something I had yearned all my life to feel; a sense of belonging to a family. It was such a huge feeling and I ‘phoned my mate Vicki and told her: ‘I have a family! I’ve just spend almost a week with people who have the same blood as me flowing through their veins – I also met P and H’s son, Stephen – now in his 40’s for the first time who is one of the most attractive men I have ever met; huge charm, v good looking, great warmth and a thoroughly good man. I had met their daughter Claire quite a few times when she was younger and sometimes visited me in London so we knew each other quite well and bonded over illicit practices which would shock her parents should they ever find out! No, I’m sure it wouldn’t; they more than realize that I’m a very bad influence on the young and susceptible….
(3) I want to be AN ACTRESS AGAIN! My actress side has been kept very much under wraps since I’ve been en Afrique and she’s itching to be resurrected: as Lee said to me when he was here, ‘you need to sparkle luvvie, you need to sparkle.’ So sparkle, I shall!!!
So I have a great deal to look forward to and before anyone asks about the kids; they’re coming with…..
Love and hugs from all of us to all of you, xxxxx